As I sit here on this spring evening, watching the best of my men leave my house for the last time, I feel a dull pain in my side. I met Ryan five years ago and we have stood beside each other ever since.

As I sit here on this spring evening, watching the best of my men leave my house for the last time, I feel a dull pain in my side. I met Ryan five years ago and we have stood beside each other ever since.